i'll be fine...

just like d song i'm listening to now..
i'll be fine...
recently.. class seems busy .. but d truth..
mayb its just me being lazy n cant concentrate
procrastinating like nobody's business
doing every single important assign n any assesment last minute
like i dun bother bout the result end up getting
haiz..
knowing that it is wrong.. but still not making any action to correct it

thses few weeks... assign .. test n classes go pretty pack..
since there;s public holiday.. the timetable got disturbed
end up 3 weeks consecutively have to get to uni during saturday
i suppose to use tis chance to stay in library to study ..
but sigh
a habit will always be habit.. its hard to change..
instead its getting worst ..
d laziness got worst
worst still knwing tat most of the units thought this sem i wasnt catching up
but still i;m still hesitating like i have tons of time left b4 sitting for d test n finals...

i tried applying for exchange program frm uni.. to exchange to get over to melbourne campus
to try to study in aussie land for a sem.
but like expected.. min requirement means min requirement..
how can me passing d application without meeting d min requirement 1st..
how naive of me..
then an alternative to get me studying in d land down under only
left the option of transferring, which means for my last year i finish in d land down under...
but due to brilliant dad bought the new crib.. which is under construction still
n which he spend his fortune on... n even gave us financial pressure every then
end up he doesnt have extra funds left for me to study abroad..
brilliant har.. chop off my path b4 i can even request to study abroad...
haiz... well i guess i'll stay here ... finish my degree here..

life's getting dull... seriously...
same routine again n again for everyday.. even every week now...
i havent been hanging out much lately..
instead staying home more like an otaku more...
worst, my interest of watching drama like b4 have faded..
its been long since i sat long in sofa to watch drama
instead staring at d monitor.. playing wasting time games...
even chatting less these days.. n interaction quite poor these days
i start not liking to speak instead .. if can..
n just get people mad of me for nothing....
i missed my skul days n college days.. i missed d energetic me
but i'll be fine...... sooner or later.. still have to face d fact of life....
~off

blunt~...

the unbreakable faith
faith is always faith
but its also depends on the hard work behind them
pretty disappointed on myself recently
on most of my happenings
which i might can change d result

looking how enjoying my frens r having fun while studying
while having their greatest experience at tis moment in their life
pretty envy n felt self depression
but i chose my path with my own determination..
which result in lack of it ...
ended up looking at other frens enjoying in other part of d world
different from mine
but i also always compensate myself
by the thought of there's always chance
but every1 knws time nvr stop n wait

who ask myself not to work harder
but d attitude i having is killing all d chances
i dun 1 end up regretting later in my life
when i dun get to do stuffs like now
i aint utilizing my teens well enuf..
ther's tons of regrets as i'm only start moving in growing up
T.T

but always believe ther's rainbow after the rain
cheers...

*signing off~*

down again'

yup yup..
feeling down again..
emo'ly down again..
recently me just felt alone
especially when u're down ...
n u just dun wanto find them to talk about
but frust over it all alone
or its either they have no time for u
or even unaware of it...
LONER
will i survive as a loner??!!
i bet i can.. mayb not survive but used to it
hhhahhah...

aint feeling good these few days...
add to d emo'ness i get
n d ups n downs
gettting to knw people who i normally hang out wif in uni
applying for exchange next sem..
making me more into miserable
knowin tat i cant join them..
n b alone here next sem... sobs..

signing off~
LONER talking into space...

here goes my break

hmm hmm...
my redang trip went well..
n had much great fun there
n looking forward for another trip there..
n yes.. i miss d beach.. sea .. n every beautiful moments ther
ouch... tis reminds me more ...
nice sun n beaches..
whoever havent been ther..
try tat place.. really good place to rewind urself
n the climax of my break..
.......................
start on new sem today.. another sem again
hhhahaha .. lucky thing i din flung any of my sem3 sub..
tis time i applied for sms notification
SCARY
is d word to describe the feeling
as on tat day itself i had a cousin outing ..
we went movies n met up wif cousin bros of us for dinner..
it was a busy day yet occupied day
but going nuts when the time near evening
where the results usually get out hot from the oven..
i din even get my nerves on to read it myself.. but my cousins did it
n almost freaked me out..
but turn out 2P 2C
comment?? no comment...
but just .. i could done it better
well its d word i would say everytime after d exams.. hahaha
others did quite well... not quite but real good..
good job...
new sem new challenge..
all d best every1 ..
cheers....
~off~

excited

excited!!!
yup yup.. 3 more days n i'm in d island of redang
hopefully it will a relaxing n fun trip
finals over but left few weeks of break
then bck to reality of being a student..
start of new sem..
new sem .. new struggle.. copping wif new subjects
n after 3 months .. FINALS again..
sigh..
life ...

but of coz.. utilized my break for now..
give myself a break
enjoy my moment of relaxation..
cheers people..

signing off..

finally .. but not quite yet

well .. i finished my 3rd paper yesterday i shud said it
it felt great.. like a burden over my shoulder is gone..
but yet i had another one for to go
till the whole burden get rid frm my shoulder
n face another new subs for comin sem..
1st time i got my nerves on for exam...
i hardly get this kinda feeling
this proves tat my pre work for finals r not good..
almost all is last minute studying.. especially the 3rd paper.
which mostly read on d day b4... n sit get myself sitting for the exam..
but lucky thing is examiner came out wif few kinder garden kinda matching ques
which i guess might help me in scoring some of the marks to
cover up those i gonna loose..
i hope the margin increase in marks from correct answer is greater than the margin of mark lost from the wrong answers..

time seems to fly tis days..
n yet most close friends are soon leaving to persue their studies...
in land far far away from mine
which left really few of those close 1 bck here..
hw i wish i could visit them in each place
traveling around is part of my dream ..
ever since i start to know tat there;s always a greater world outside of my own

everything seem contradict for every reason we make d decision
but life still goes on..
welcome to my life.....

signing off~

finals...

just started finals yesterday..
the first unit .. cost info studies..
no comment on it since there's 1 particular part which i defiantely sure i dunno how to do..
well hopefully my marks satisfied me....
oh ya.. d previous post on my lost assgn.. its on tis unit
but end up my score is still reasonable although its my unsatisfied second part of assgn

well.. i;m supposely to be studying for my monday paper.. but well .. i just get myself studying for it..
COZ .. its a subject where examiner pop u with ques and required to write pages of essays to the answer
n yet its not only 1 esssay.. but 6 ques of essay ques..
me, i'm a person who dislike writting essay.. espeacially academic kinda essay..
n the notes to be read is pilled up almost the ocmbination of other 3 more units
really GG..
then after monday paper.. wed got another paper.. which is also tough yet got no time to study ..
since most of my time nw is to allocate studying for monday sub..
but as u can see.. though saying i suppose to be studying
but end up blogging here.. damn...
not even tat .. i'm even facebooking all way down.
hmm better go get studying after blogging

well.. after 3rd paper will break for another 1 and a half week b4 i can officially finish d 4th n final paper for the sem..
then off i go having fun till the results out... result time will be scary since i experience the NP appearing infront of my screen b4
ALL D BEST n GOOD LUCK to all....

1 down 3 to go...

ciaoz.. signing off...~