sunday sunday sunday

while i'm havig a depressed saturday nite
me n my couzy spend our nite sitting near d fountain in curve
looking at all passerby n discuss bout them
looking at all sort of human kind n their being
looking at how they dress, to how admiring with their shoes n dress
looking at every nice looking people
talking bout how hot they looked
n who does them look alike wif
wat a nite..
basically both of us stayed there looking at people
for about 4 hours...
geez... i guess spare time spent faster than anything

itz sunday again
n i have test coming up this week
1 tomoro n another 1 on friday
n i havent bother to touch either of the notes..
geez... wat have i turn myself into

early in d afternoon went to sunway resort for buffet dinner
lunch bought by cousin sis for their lovely son's bday celebration
was a good 1
then end up coming home wif bloated stomach
then mr lau called out once i'm bck at home
to teman makan lunch.. but i only accompany
then later went to desa park to collect his paycheaque
it was evening then n kinda my 1st visit to tat nice place..
end up we walk around d park..
i liked d park vv much
it has pretty scene n i liked looking at lots of people walking their dogs around d lake..
vv soothing n relax place to hang out in d evening..
nice place to be... n made me lay bck
till now cant get into starting to study for my test tomoro
sigh...
n finals coming soon too... real gg this time..
really wondering how come there's only 1 sunday in a week...
dreaming dreaming dreaming...

sick and tired

not in a good mood lately..
restless... sick n tired of wat i'm now
again weekend left alone... at home
nothing else better to do
every1's busy wif their life while i'm bored at it
at this moment..
d restlessness kills... its d worst thing to happen

b4 mum left for dinner.. she ask.. well u gonna be left out alone at home tonite.. how?
both of us answer spontaneously: "haiz, biasa d 1 la"
well i guess tis is really normal till i get frustrated finally tis time
making me getting restless more... sigh.. wat a day'
i wish i can share my sound in heart wif some1..
mentally sick n tired...
sigh~
off~

i'll be fine...

just like d song i'm listening to now..
i'll be fine...
recently.. class seems busy .. but d truth..
mayb its just me being lazy n cant concentrate
procrastinating like nobody's business
doing every single important assign n any assesment last minute
like i dun bother bout the result end up getting
haiz..
knowing that it is wrong.. but still not making any action to correct it

thses few weeks... assign .. test n classes go pretty pack..
since there;s public holiday.. the timetable got disturbed
end up 3 weeks consecutively have to get to uni during saturday
i suppose to use tis chance to stay in library to study ..
but sigh
a habit will always be habit.. its hard to change..
instead its getting worst ..
d laziness got worst
worst still knwing tat most of the units thought this sem i wasnt catching up
but still i;m still hesitating like i have tons of time left b4 sitting for d test n finals...

i tried applying for exchange program frm uni.. to exchange to get over to melbourne campus
to try to study in aussie land for a sem.
but like expected.. min requirement means min requirement..
how can me passing d application without meeting d min requirement 1st..
how naive of me..
then an alternative to get me studying in d land down under only
left the option of transferring, which means for my last year i finish in d land down under...
but due to brilliant dad bought the new crib.. which is under construction still
n which he spend his fortune on... n even gave us financial pressure every then
end up he doesnt have extra funds left for me to study abroad..
brilliant har.. chop off my path b4 i can even request to study abroad...
haiz... well i guess i'll stay here ... finish my degree here..

life's getting dull... seriously...
same routine again n again for everyday.. even every week now...
i havent been hanging out much lately..
instead staying home more like an otaku more...
worst, my interest of watching drama like b4 have faded..
its been long since i sat long in sofa to watch drama
instead staring at d monitor.. playing wasting time games...
even chatting less these days.. n interaction quite poor these days
i start not liking to speak instead .. if can..
n just get people mad of me for nothing....
i missed my skul days n college days.. i missed d energetic me
but i'll be fine...... sooner or later.. still have to face d fact of life....
~off

blunt~...

the unbreakable faith
faith is always faith
but its also depends on the hard work behind them
pretty disappointed on myself recently
on most of my happenings
which i might can change d result

looking how enjoying my frens r having fun while studying
while having their greatest experience at tis moment in their life
pretty envy n felt self depression
but i chose my path with my own determination..
which result in lack of it ...
ended up looking at other frens enjoying in other part of d world
different from mine
but i also always compensate myself
by the thought of there's always chance
but every1 knws time nvr stop n wait

who ask myself not to work harder
but d attitude i having is killing all d chances
i dun 1 end up regretting later in my life
when i dun get to do stuffs like now
i aint utilizing my teens well enuf..
ther's tons of regrets as i'm only start moving in growing up
T.T

but always believe ther's rainbow after the rain
cheers...

*signing off~*

down again'

yup yup..
feeling down again..
emo'ly down again..
recently me just felt alone
especially when u're down ...
n u just dun wanto find them to talk about
but frust over it all alone
or its either they have no time for u
or even unaware of it...
LONER
will i survive as a loner??!!
i bet i can.. mayb not survive but used to it
hhhahhah...

aint feeling good these few days...
add to d emo'ness i get
n d ups n downs
gettting to knw people who i normally hang out wif in uni
applying for exchange next sem..
making me more into miserable
knowin tat i cant join them..
n b alone here next sem... sobs..

signing off~
LONER talking into space...

here goes my break

hmm hmm...
my redang trip went well..
n had much great fun there
n looking forward for another trip there..
n yes.. i miss d beach.. sea .. n every beautiful moments ther
ouch... tis reminds me more ...
nice sun n beaches..
whoever havent been ther..
try tat place.. really good place to rewind urself
n the climax of my break..
.......................
start on new sem today.. another sem again
hhhahaha .. lucky thing i din flung any of my sem3 sub..
tis time i applied for sms notification
SCARY
is d word to describe the feeling
as on tat day itself i had a cousin outing ..
we went movies n met up wif cousin bros of us for dinner..
it was a busy day yet occupied day
but going nuts when the time near evening
where the results usually get out hot from the oven..
i din even get my nerves on to read it myself.. but my cousins did it
n almost freaked me out..
but turn out 2P 2C
comment?? no comment...
but just .. i could done it better
well its d word i would say everytime after d exams.. hahaha
others did quite well... not quite but real good..
good job...
new sem new challenge..
all d best every1 ..
cheers....
~off~

excited

excited!!!
yup yup.. 3 more days n i'm in d island of redang
hopefully it will a relaxing n fun trip
finals over but left few weeks of break
then bck to reality of being a student..
start of new sem..
new sem .. new struggle.. copping wif new subjects
n after 3 months .. FINALS again..
sigh..
life ...

but of coz.. utilized my break for now..
give myself a break
enjoy my moment of relaxation..
cheers people..

signing off..