kuli week..

well i purposely took a week of frm part time
to help parents..
what to do... dad take in so many orders for the week
and its my decision to take a week off... mayb a way to get rid of my part time sien-ness

today it suppose to be a family gathering kinda event for every chinese
but sigh.. again.. spending it with lotsa people with us serving them
i'm getting used to it ... it used to be suffering event few years ago
and again .. turn out so many sibling i had.. only left me bother to help
sigh~ sometimes feel like bombard them .. but some how i;m d youngest
cant do that... their choice.. but seeing only my parents working
day n nite.. no 1 bother to help out a bit .. its crazy...
even a tiny handy hand would lift their shoulder bit lighter
n yet i no longer like event days .. coz its becoming a same usual day
no special reason for me to celebrate since i'm always tangle up to help them

haiz... x'mas gone, new year gone, summer break gone....

people start thinking what had u done for the year
recall them... n it will freak u out.. how much time wasted without doing any meaningful stuff
and how the time flies like shooting stars..
we nvr appreaciate untill we loose it ..

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signing off~

everyday is a new challenge???

well i dont see that now
so far..
as every whats in d list of to-do remains the same daily
even started part-time.. the list goes on and on with the same old routine
BOREDOM
we call it..
so how can the challenge of everyday be such a way?!

maybe its d spices in every1's life is differ from one to another
thats why there's something call "spiced up your life"!!!
trying to be lame here""
well.. the spice i've been using so many years really did some boredom out of it some times
i would said most of the time..
people come and go
there's only few left to be the worthy ones n yet still keeping
without turning away from
>those who stay no matter how long since we knew each another
without connecting frequently
>those who even know what each other thinking with a flick of eye
>those who think of you even they're with their love ones
>....... the list goes on & on ...
and these are meant to be kept forever..

after so long...

its been almost 2 months i din blog...

update on studies.. due to not revising properly n hardworking enuf

tada! i failed 2 units!! GG..T.T

i was shocked enuf when i received the sms result

n rite after tat sm called n told about hers as well.. then we start talking in phone

thinking ways for her to talk to her parents..

mine? well, i end up tearing while dinner as i'm telling them about it

so hence, dad no chance to pull my head off or mumble/scold me tat time

but i did felt guilty for failing 2 but not pass all..

tis failing 2 units also means tat i gotto extend my studies for another half a year

tada~! graduation will be half a year later than expected

holiday so far was .. erm.. oh .. how would i said..

boring? well... not really till i'm in part time nw..

darn bored sitting in office alone most of the time..

scanning... walk up n down... scanning...

n ya... blogging like nw.. but yet i'm in office "working"

but at d same time i feel like quiting so tat i can hang out wif my frens

which we had alot to catch up.. especially those who's came bck n leaving again..

but for those catch up i need also xtra pocket money whereby i need to earn nw..

life~

more to be updated ...

singing off...

searching for the turn on switch

how can my study mood get turn on?!
my finals in 2 weeks time..
and not a single knowledge needed in finals insert to my brain
gg'ed... doomed
walking around campus .. every1 seem to be reading their notes or the text
but me ending up in comp lab facebooking.. staring into space
study? hardly read through notes even in study weeks
i'll better find a way to get me study b4 its really toooooooo late
since its already late now..
lolx...
stress for not studying~

random update.....
off~

end of break= 1 step nearer to exam

yup.. here goes my break..
n quite disappointed 1 also
i knw i knw.. dun so emo.. but throughout d break
emo attack again n again .. non stopping
like mentioned earlier n b4 i started d break
did really end up helping most of the time
but also got myself bck to d old me
catching on few dramas during the break
wat to do .. uni gang busy wif their assgn..
then me n sm end up din plan anything wif them
then wanna go watch movie wanna ajak ray also cant ade..
too far to be reach in time for movie..
hahhaha...

then i was then looking forward for d mooncake festival
which end up being an emo day for me..
supposely to have either teppanyaki or make sushi at home
thanx to mum again plan gotto cancel off
wat to do .. even only she only ask to fetch them to work
but haiz.. mum still mum.. dun wanna hired people to work ..
insist of getting herself tangled up wif 2 hands only
takkan i go drop them off like tat rite..
end up thinking i shall help them awhile then only bck home to celebrate
well well... end up the work never end .. since there's only 3 of us at d place...
so my dinner plan sway~ but i left d place some how b4 the buffet started
i just dunno y.. tears just roll down as i was driving bck home...
n tis reminded me of years ago.. when i still play tanglung..
there was once of the year only me alone at home..
but i still insisted to lite on tanglung n hang on trees around d house all alone
how naive n free frm thought compare to now..
recently its quite a struggle for myself to pass my days of celebration
sometimes just feel so tired of being me...
i think during the break .. 3 out of 4 days i end up snacking wif instant noodles
parents working, end up me alone at home most of the time
so is either i just take lunch or dinner for the day..
even one of the day.. i only realised i havent fill up wif food not until 9pm..
crazy break ...

officially 1 month to exam.. nervous for my revision..
coz dun think i understand most of the units..
n getting worried for my next sem for left out alone frm the gang alone in campus..
hmmm....
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summary of another weekend

yup yup ...
yet another weekend and another post bout it..
its my so call mid-sem break starts!!! yeah??
nop.. seams like to me i need to help out tru d week
busy week for chinese to choose this month to get married
crazy.. done complaining..
now .. summary of my weekend

no party out tis weekend instead some slow n happy doing activities..
started out with saturday morning .. helped mum in d morning till afternoon
just lending some hand.. after that decided to stop by grandparents' place
although its near store but i hardly stop by there
felt guilty sometimes.. especially when grandpa was in d hospital
i was so worried he cant overcome and i was so regretted for not spending time wif him
so whenever those moment appear .. it made me stop by grandparents' place
d place just filled my childhood memory a lot
how i was running business with them in d vege stall as well as d convenient shop
which run in d neighbourhood and no1 wont knw who my grandparents if u mention them
its good when those elderly remembered seeing me last time when they see me now
i'll do all kinda stuff ther.. frm weighing vege to scrapping scales off fishes
eat junk food as much as i wan, taking bottles of soft drinks frm fridge as i want...
wat a great experience... just an ordinary kid would hang out in kampung
thinking bck now.. i kinda a kampung girl whenever parents was away to work
hahaha
lolx... i believe no1 around me would had such great experience as kampung girl like tat..
but when come to my grandparents...haiz... they hardly remember wat their grandchild, me,
is doing now .. even thought i was in secondary skul or working for every time my visits..
n everytime i had to tell them i'm in uni
wat to do.. they raise 12 kids... n can u imagine how many grandchildren around them... with wide range of age even.. no complaints... plus me hardly visit them..
i spend almost half of my afternoon bck to grandparents place
after got bck home.. as usual on d pc on my way in the house..
then dear yuki pop in msn window complaining boring and felt like going for a swim
since it was a damn hot day.. d swimming feel storm me as well
so i was like "ok, pack now n lets go"
of coz then we was like lookin gwhich pool to go.. till evening ni we left..
end up we went for a moonlight swim... it was quite a swim
after so long... quite enjoy it... n looking forward for our next swim session
after our swim .. we end up in dpc to adore our hunger with great dinner
n CAKES!!! of coz.. main purpose of going ther is for their cakes actually
we had long dinner hour as well as long talk..
kinda more like a pillow talk ..
just tat we had it outside of bedroom
girls complains, talking, and complains again ..
lolx.. nice girl outing..

sunday well... supposely decided to go for wedding dinner earlier
but sadly parents so dun wan me to follow .. they just took off without me
how mean..
but end up bro buy dinner for us.. cool.. hardly he buy dinner
n good 1 .. we went to a chinese steamboat restourant serving typicall sichuan steamboat
we had lamb slices, chinese dumpling, ramen with special mixture of sesame sauce
which is near home... lately kepong been such convenient n greater deal for food
compare to city centre n pj, with unreasonable over-priced food
no good... not worth d penny since i can get a better taste and food quality in place near me

done summary for d weekend...

signing off~

another weekend

yet another weekend had past
and this was a long 1..
with raya break, this weekend became a 4 days off
then study for another 3 more days.. then my mid-sem break
so called mid sem break but it suppose to be a start to study for finals off
it was basically a really long nite out for d past few days
especially wif my cousins..
we hang out till late almost every alternate nite since friday
but at least i'm consider half occupied throughout the weekend
it depressing for myself to not to think about being alone on weekends unplanned
sad.... n mood spoiler...

i deeply missed d beach vv much ..
unforgettable relax and unwind feelings
d sun, beach, breeze of ocean...
really a great getaway place to be...
any beach will just give d same soothing feeling..
i'm sure a beach lover...
whenever i'm bored or tensed.. beach is d place popped out in mind..

lately sis was conquering d comp for d whole day
i din even get the chance to even on9 like i usually does
i even have to chat half way n cut off my msn conversation without saying bye
n sis just log off n do her stuff...
shud be time for a personal lappy ..
muahahah.. persuation time

recently found out tat people think of me as a hard cold ice block
for their first impression... its like they have to break the ice
to get me talk to them.. so they rather not ...
am i so?! n then only they might say tat i;m outgoing after knowing me
well i guess never judge frm wat it looks like then...
after knowing people frm diffferent background
i really think tat i;m too hard for a gal
its in d sense tat strong hard kinda..
i will ten to think that girls who rely on guys only r useless
n guys shud be ashame of themselve for not knowing stuffs that i know
which suppose to be in a guy's shoes, they shud knw
n i try to not seek help from guys if i;m capable of completing d task
n mayb tats also one of the reason y no guys approaches me
i'm affraid tat my hard side kills me more than anything else...


off*