summary of another weekend

yup yup ...
yet another weekend and another post bout it..
its my so call mid-sem break starts!!! yeah??
nop.. seams like to me i need to help out tru d week
busy week for chinese to choose this month to get married
crazy.. done complaining..
now .. summary of my weekend

no party out tis weekend instead some slow n happy doing activities..
started out with saturday morning .. helped mum in d morning till afternoon
just lending some hand.. after that decided to stop by grandparents' place
although its near store but i hardly stop by there
felt guilty sometimes.. especially when grandpa was in d hospital
i was so worried he cant overcome and i was so regretted for not spending time wif him
so whenever those moment appear .. it made me stop by grandparents' place
d place just filled my childhood memory a lot
how i was running business with them in d vege stall as well as d convenient shop
which run in d neighbourhood and no1 wont knw who my grandparents if u mention them
its good when those elderly remembered seeing me last time when they see me now
i'll do all kinda stuff ther.. frm weighing vege to scrapping scales off fishes
eat junk food as much as i wan, taking bottles of soft drinks frm fridge as i want...
wat a great experience... just an ordinary kid would hang out in kampung
thinking bck now.. i kinda a kampung girl whenever parents was away to work
hahaha
lolx... i believe no1 around me would had such great experience as kampung girl like tat..
but when come to my grandparents...haiz... they hardly remember wat their grandchild, me,
is doing now .. even thought i was in secondary skul or working for every time my visits..
n everytime i had to tell them i'm in uni
wat to do.. they raise 12 kids... n can u imagine how many grandchildren around them... with wide range of age even.. no complaints... plus me hardly visit them..
i spend almost half of my afternoon bck to grandparents place
after got bck home.. as usual on d pc on my way in the house..
then dear yuki pop in msn window complaining boring and felt like going for a swim
since it was a damn hot day.. d swimming feel storm me as well
so i was like "ok, pack now n lets go"
of coz then we was like lookin gwhich pool to go.. till evening ni we left..
end up we went for a moonlight swim... it was quite a swim
after so long... quite enjoy it... n looking forward for our next swim session
after our swim .. we end up in dpc to adore our hunger with great dinner
n CAKES!!! of coz.. main purpose of going ther is for their cakes actually
we had long dinner hour as well as long talk..
kinda more like a pillow talk ..
just tat we had it outside of bedroom
girls complains, talking, and complains again ..
lolx.. nice girl outing..

sunday well... supposely decided to go for wedding dinner earlier
but sadly parents so dun wan me to follow .. they just took off without me
how mean..
but end up bro buy dinner for us.. cool.. hardly he buy dinner
n good 1 .. we went to a chinese steamboat restourant serving typicall sichuan steamboat
we had lamb slices, chinese dumpling, ramen with special mixture of sesame sauce
which is near home... lately kepong been such convenient n greater deal for food
compare to city centre n pj, with unreasonable over-priced food
no good... not worth d penny since i can get a better taste and food quality in place near me

done summary for d weekend...

signing off~

another weekend

yet another weekend had past
and this was a long 1..
with raya break, this weekend became a 4 days off
then study for another 3 more days.. then my mid-sem break
so called mid sem break but it suppose to be a start to study for finals off
it was basically a really long nite out for d past few days
especially wif my cousins..
we hang out till late almost every alternate nite since friday
but at least i'm consider half occupied throughout the weekend
it depressing for myself to not to think about being alone on weekends unplanned
sad.... n mood spoiler...

i deeply missed d beach vv much ..
unforgettable relax and unwind feelings
d sun, beach, breeze of ocean...
really a great getaway place to be...
any beach will just give d same soothing feeling..
i'm sure a beach lover...
whenever i'm bored or tensed.. beach is d place popped out in mind..

lately sis was conquering d comp for d whole day
i din even get the chance to even on9 like i usually does
i even have to chat half way n cut off my msn conversation without saying bye
n sis just log off n do her stuff...
shud be time for a personal lappy ..
muahahah.. persuation time

recently found out tat people think of me as a hard cold ice block
for their first impression... its like they have to break the ice
to get me talk to them.. so they rather not ...
am i so?! n then only they might say tat i;m outgoing after knowing me
well i guess never judge frm wat it looks like then...
after knowing people frm diffferent background
i really think tat i;m too hard for a gal
its in d sense tat strong hard kinda..
i will ten to think that girls who rely on guys only r useless
n guys shud be ashame of themselve for not knowing stuffs that i know
which suppose to be in a guy's shoes, they shud knw
n i try to not seek help from guys if i;m capable of completing d task
n mayb tats also one of the reason y no guys approaches me
i'm affraid tat my hard side kills me more than anything else...


off*

sunday sunday sunday

while i'm havig a depressed saturday nite
me n my couzy spend our nite sitting near d fountain in curve
looking at all passerby n discuss bout them
looking at all sort of human kind n their being
looking at how they dress, to how admiring with their shoes n dress
looking at every nice looking people
talking bout how hot they looked
n who does them look alike wif
wat a nite..
basically both of us stayed there looking at people
for about 4 hours...
geez... i guess spare time spent faster than anything

itz sunday again
n i have test coming up this week
1 tomoro n another 1 on friday
n i havent bother to touch either of the notes..
geez... wat have i turn myself into

early in d afternoon went to sunway resort for buffet dinner
lunch bought by cousin sis for their lovely son's bday celebration
was a good 1
then end up coming home wif bloated stomach
then mr lau called out once i'm bck at home
to teman makan lunch.. but i only accompany
then later went to desa park to collect his paycheaque
it was evening then n kinda my 1st visit to tat nice place..
end up we walk around d park..
i liked d park vv much
it has pretty scene n i liked looking at lots of people walking their dogs around d lake..
vv soothing n relax place to hang out in d evening..
nice place to be... n made me lay bck
till now cant get into starting to study for my test tomoro
sigh...
n finals coming soon too... real gg this time..
really wondering how come there's only 1 sunday in a week...
dreaming dreaming dreaming...

sick and tired

not in a good mood lately..
restless... sick n tired of wat i'm now
again weekend left alone... at home
nothing else better to do
every1's busy wif their life while i'm bored at it
at this moment..
d restlessness kills... its d worst thing to happen

b4 mum left for dinner.. she ask.. well u gonna be left out alone at home tonite.. how?
both of us answer spontaneously: "haiz, biasa d 1 la"
well i guess tis is really normal till i get frustrated finally tis time
making me getting restless more... sigh.. wat a day'
i wish i can share my sound in heart wif some1..
mentally sick n tired...
sigh~
off~

i'll be fine...

just like d song i'm listening to now..
i'll be fine...
recently.. class seems busy .. but d truth..
mayb its just me being lazy n cant concentrate
procrastinating like nobody's business
doing every single important assign n any assesment last minute
like i dun bother bout the result end up getting
haiz..
knowing that it is wrong.. but still not making any action to correct it

thses few weeks... assign .. test n classes go pretty pack..
since there;s public holiday.. the timetable got disturbed
end up 3 weeks consecutively have to get to uni during saturday
i suppose to use tis chance to stay in library to study ..
but sigh
a habit will always be habit.. its hard to change..
instead its getting worst ..
d laziness got worst
worst still knwing tat most of the units thought this sem i wasnt catching up
but still i;m still hesitating like i have tons of time left b4 sitting for d test n finals...

i tried applying for exchange program frm uni.. to exchange to get over to melbourne campus
to try to study in aussie land for a sem.
but like expected.. min requirement means min requirement..
how can me passing d application without meeting d min requirement 1st..
how naive of me..
then an alternative to get me studying in d land down under only
left the option of transferring, which means for my last year i finish in d land down under...
but due to brilliant dad bought the new crib.. which is under construction still
n which he spend his fortune on... n even gave us financial pressure every then
end up he doesnt have extra funds left for me to study abroad..
brilliant har.. chop off my path b4 i can even request to study abroad...
haiz... well i guess i'll stay here ... finish my degree here..

life's getting dull... seriously...
same routine again n again for everyday.. even every week now...
i havent been hanging out much lately..
instead staying home more like an otaku more...
worst, my interest of watching drama like b4 have faded..
its been long since i sat long in sofa to watch drama
instead staring at d monitor.. playing wasting time games...
even chatting less these days.. n interaction quite poor these days
i start not liking to speak instead .. if can..
n just get people mad of me for nothing....
i missed my skul days n college days.. i missed d energetic me
but i'll be fine...... sooner or later.. still have to face d fact of life....
~off